life is good...for the most part

ok, well i havent posted anything new in about 2 weeks so i figure its about time i get to it. ive been somewhat busy, which is really busy compared to usual. ive been golfing alot the last few weeks, some good scores...some not so good. today i shot a 46, my best of the season and ive been pretty consistent in about the 47-50 range most of the year after a 55 in the first meet. NICOLE and i are getting along pretty well but i wont be able to see her tomorrow much at all =[ i had a soccer game on saturday which we won and then i went golfing which was fun until we had to stop early which pissed me off. im saying which alot today if anyone hasnt noticed, idk y i just am. dont bug me about it or ill slit ur throat! not really, but just dont bug me about it. i golfed on sunday too and shot a 49 at piper hills in plainview. im happy with how ive been golfing recently, but not with how i did on my geometry test. i got a whopping 60%. horrible, i know. but other than that, i really cant complain. i have over 100% in spanish and prolly 100% in phy ed. but im done typing for now, another update soon probably.

caring

im depressed and i dunno why. it could be about not doing well at golf on monday and missing a meeting for it yesterday, but i really dont know. golf used to be a big part of my life but now its like i dont even care about it anymore. i only have so much that i can care and i care about Nicole more than i have ever cared about anything in my life. its kinda freaking me out cuz i dont have any caring left in me, if that makes any sense to you. i have always had room in myself to care more about things, but i dont have that extra supply anymore. i need to get it back, but i cant just stop caring about something. i dont want to stop caring. i cant stop caring. my life revolves around three things; Nicole, school, and golf. and i care about Nicole more than anything else. i somehow need to balance those three things out and somehow keep my relationship afloat at the same time. i dont know how to do that. i guess ive just been really frustrated with myself recently and i think it showed on the golf course monday night. plain and simple i need to start caring about golf more, then ill be happier.

time for an update i guess

ive been pretty good lately, got my B+ in computer app back up to an A- because i fixed one assignment so yay for that. been reading and writing quite a bit too which actually is pretty enjoyable. Happy April to all, and Happy Anniversary to NICOLE-April 2 was our 2 month. and i actually didnt forget it, lol. i got 11 hours of sleep out of the last 72 and im kinda pissed about that but w/e its my own fault partly. im 3rd on varsity for the golf meet on monday which hopefully will be warm. IT WAS FUCKING COLD TODAY!!! damn, i hate this kind of weather it just sets me up for a bad day. but today actually was pretty good after cussing all morning, lol. i was cold when i got to school even tho i got a ride 1/2 a block, thx tyler pagel. he saved me from freezing my ass literally. im on pg 30 of my book and im kinda getting sick of typing, lol. but ill keep with it till im done just cuz i need to get some kind of work ethic going. i have none whatsoever right now. and i know my last couple entries on there have been kinda/very long so ima keep this one shorter. I love you all, especially NICOLE =]