NO HILLARY CLINTON!!

There is no way in hell that anyone should vote for Hillary Clinton, I hate her with a passion. I think Bill will probably do more of the presidential work than she will, if she is elected. I personally believe that Barack Obama is the best candidate, but I don't want to sway anyone's opinion from Edwards. If Hillary is elected someone is going to die (just kidding).


There's not really much to update here, Christmas has come and gone. It wasn't any more or less exciting than years past. I do believe that I'm starting to distance myself from the holidays though. I got a ton of golf balls and I think I'm set for most of next year. What did you all get? I'm interested to hear from all of you.

Since the skating rink has opened I've been down there a lot. I love skating, but it gets really tiring after a while. My brother and I were there for around six hours yesterday and I ended up sleeping until one this afternoon.

The Vikings looked terrrible through the first three quarters of todays game against the Broncos so I quit watching. Apparently they came back but lost in overtime. That's okay. There's always next year.

I'm in a good mood and I don't know why.

Yesterday was the first Knowledge Bowl meet of the year. It was pretty cool because we were going against like 3-A schools and two of our teams ended up in the top 4. I also thought it was awesome that my team, although we didn't do so well in the oral faceoffs, got 44/60 on the written part of the event. I think the written part is the hardest so I was surprised we did so well on that and so poorly in the oral rounds. Overall, I believe it was a more than satisfactory showing. Hopefully we'll do better than that next Wednesday when we go against a Rochester school. I believe it's J.M., but I could be wrong.

I also have a Math League meet on Monday after school so next week is going to be busy. I think I'm ready for it though, I hope my teams are too. The one thing I know I am not ready for yet is Christmas, which is coming up in a huge hurry. I have no presents for my brothers or parents, but I think I know what I'm going to get for my brothers. I have absolutely no idea what to get for my parents. Any ideas? Anything for a reasonable dollar amount will be considered.

I've been kind of confused lately and I still am. The one thing that is really getting on my nerves right now is the fact that my checkbook didn't balance. That's not good. I still don't have a girlfriend, if anyone's interested let me know! Haha, I don't think I'll get any takers. I don't need a girlfriend, but I'd like to have one. Maybe the search should be called off until after Christmas though, I'll bet there are some gold diggers in the DEHS school system.

I now realize that this blog is kind of all over the place and doesn't flow well. I think there's a good chance that i have A.D.D. or A.D.H.D. I feel that I've had it since either 7th or 8th grade, I don't remember which year Sam asked me if I had it. I do believe her to be the youngest person to have ever predetermined a disease/disorder. Does anyone know if A.D.D. or A.D.H.D. has any long term effects on the human body/mind? I find it a fascinating subject. Did I spell fascinating right? It looks right to me, but I'm not sure.

Again, I'm being very random tonight. I've noticed lately that a lot of my friends have been depressed. Not for any specific reason. I just find it odd that people care about grades, sports, and family/ friends more than they care about their own life. Is this the way America is going to be in 20 years? Are the Americans going to let their own country be taken over by the Mexicans, Europeans, and Asians? I'm not rascist, but there is something truely wrong with the U.S.A.'s way of thinking and if I could change it by myself I would in a heartbeat. This was a country built on pride and loyalty, where are those good old fashioned values that people used to have? Are people so narrow-minded these days that they can't see that this country is falling apart. I'm not blaming this at all on President Bush even though I don't like him, if people aren't going to respect their their own lifes then what are they going to respect?

No one these days is willing to work to get through problems in their life. They always expect someone else to do it for them, but the problems just keep getting bigger and bigger until they eventually can't be stopped by anyone and then it's like a nationwide pandemic/epidemic. People lose their heads over the littlest problems and it saddens everyone around them. If people would work through their problems on their own there wouldn't be a thing like Depression sweeping the nation. One man cannot do the work of 20 men in the same amount of time that the 20 men can do their own work. One hard working individual out of 20 doesn't cut it, ever. That's why we, as citizens of the United States of America, need to band together and teach everyone. I think that's what the phrase "...Together we stand, divided we fall..." is all about. It's not about the individuals, it's about everyone working together as one and getting things done. Getting things done correctly. Perfectly. Perfectly.

Think about it people. I love living and I love all of you!

whoa, it's been a month!

and nothing has changed at all, lol. school's not too bad, its snowed a few times, other than that everything's about where it was. thanksgiving was quite dull, nothing big happened. i did get guitar hero three, that's about the best thing thats happened in the last month. the worst thing is probably that the Vikes rookie sensation, adrian peterson, was injured during the viking v packer game and is now out for 2 or 3 more weeks. but that doesnt effect me, so life's good. LG!

Rant. Bitch

fuck it. i gotta be done with this shit and move on, be happy again. gotta try anyway, gotta quit holding on and let the past go. the past doesnt mean anything anymore anyway. thats all it is...past. over and done with. yay...im still pissed.

Maybe...Maybe not.

What do you want from me? What can I do? I gave you love, I gave you my heart and I never asked for it back. I don't want it back; keep it. Whether you use it or not; I know that it's in good hands if you have it. I don't need you to love me, though I wouldn't mind at all. I would absolutely love that, but I don't expect it. All I want is for you to like me and talk to me, can you do that? Or at least act?

Friends?

I want to be friends; you won't let me. I don't know what I did, but I obviously did something to hurt you or piss you off and I'm sorry about it. I don't need to know what I did, I just need to know how to fix it. How? It just feels, to me, that you don't care anymore. Don't care about me. It wouldn't come as any real surprise because I've done a lot of things to hurt you and I've made a lot of mistakes. You talked to me for a week or two, then you stopped; that made me sad. Before, nobody ever really wanted, or seemed to want, to know me; you seemed to and I wanted that, I still want that. But, I'll be fine just so long as you will be my friend. That's all I really want, well, I also want you to be happy. If you are happier without me, I will try to be happy for you. If you are happier with me, I'd really like to be your friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

Hey babes...

I need a girlfriend, haha. I spend waaaayyy too much time online because I have no one to see and nothing better to do. If you're interested, please, don't hesitate to tell me. I don't expect anyone to come to me, but that would be awesome! I haven't been in a very positive mood since May 2. I might be the only one who knows why that is, but that's sort of the way i like it. I'm not really interested in anyone particularly and that sucks, but it's my fault. I've had plenty of time to think about it, I just haven't yet. I'm being really indecisive right now and I need someone who knows a lot of girls to bounce ideas off of. Not prospects, just ideas.

It seems like all 9th grade girls are out of the question since none of them talk to me anymore. I'm friends with a lot of junior girls, but I'm not sure that i want to be more than friends with any of them and most of the sophomore girls are stuck-up bitches. There's no way I'm going to go any farther from my own age group than that right now, so I guess I'm stuck being single for a while. Aww poo...

In other news, it's October. That's great, because, well I really don't know why, it just is.

Oh yeah, I've made a few new friends searching for babes on Myspace, there are actually a lot of really neat people on there if they are nice enough to talk to people they don't know. I told them all i was bored, which wasn't totally untrue.

The Vikings officially suck again. I don't know why Childress has Holcomb and Jackson throwing the ball in the 4th quarter, they can't do anything in the first three! Hand the ball to Peterson with the game on the line, he can break one 90 yards for the touchdown!

Anyway, this is just a rant and it's going nowhere. I love you all!

Updated blog!

woot! i like it, a lot. tell me what you think.

HEY YOU! PEOPLE

ive been thinking about getting rid of this blog since no one seems to read it.

if you dont want me to, tell me within a month of this post and ill make sure i keep it somewhat up to date.

it would be nice if someone read this sometime. i kinda like writing on it, but i have a blog on myspace too. i suppose if i really feel i need to write, i can do it on there.

thats all, just tell me if u care.
much love all!

yeah...

its been exactly a month since i last updated so here goes...

my classes are shit in school, except 3rd block. Natural Resources is great just because NICOLE is in it with me and shes great. the first two weeks, school lunch has been total shit and ive had to resort to eating salad as part of it. i had an appointment today tho, so i never had lunch.

altho lunch has been shit, school is going perfectly already, maybe. just cuz of Nicole.

i got totally screwed up over the summer with feelings/emotions and shit like that. i think i know better now and yeah...thats going nowhere. i think thats already tmi for me 2 be giving out. i think i made it pretty obvious already that i like Nicole, still. but its the truth, no denying the truth.

she thought id forget about her by the start of senior year, no way in hell thats happening. i think ill remember her long after high school and college are both done with. i hope to remember everyone, i doubt i will tho =[


nothin real exciting at all before school started, i hung out with hayley, amy, and kassie like twice but other than that my whole summer was pretty uneventful.

i cant wait til monday...

update...

nicole told me to update...so im updating just 4 her

i havent really done much since i last updated, this weekend i stayed in kasson with my uncle which was fun. i watched movies til like 3 in the mornin =D i watched walking tall [soooo stupid] and american wedding and american pie the naked mile [watch em! they r greatness]

and today...i hung out with amy, hayley and kassie for a while then amy, hayley and i went to hayleys house and played guitar hero. jon came after a while and that was fun. i ate like a whole pizza [yummay! i ate like 10 chips worth of food all weekend] . after that we went to amy's and watched borat [stupid, waste of my life]

ive also been writing quite a bit...and thats the story of my life.

books, beer, bitches! livin life 2 the fullest. im out 4 now

my weekend

saturday - i woke up at about 11:30 and ate lunch. then i got a phone call and went to sabrinas to go 4 wheeling. that was pretty awesome even tho im sore now and i was shaking for a few hours after i got home. she was laughin at me aboout that =] sabrina is a fuckin great driver tho , haha. she scared the shit outta me the first few times, it was great fun tho and i got to meet some of her fam. her dad is real nice and the other ppl that were over seemed nice enough. today was a good day, a real good day. i was even away from my fam. for most of it.

sunday - i woke up at about 1030 and went golfin. my momma felt like being nice today so she stopped at kt and let me get a Vault, i was going thru withdrawl. i golfed decently, shot a 49, but i only used 7,8,9 irons, PW, and putter. i surprised myself =] i even made a 25 foot putt, haha. longest of my life. and tonight ill stay up till 2 or 3 if no one bothers me. i need to use the desktop cuz i cant get the internet working on my laptop for whatever reason. im just too stupid to figure it out.

im back! =]

finally! and i got my internet working on my computer somewhat decently. im happy 2 be home. but now im like a week behind everyone else and have no idea whats going on, haha. yellowstone was pretty gay, we saw a bunch of animals, mostly buffalo. then we went to SD on the 4th and saw mt. rushmore and a bunch of other shit. on our way home we stopped in wall drug which was like a little outlet mall. it was kinda gay and i wanted to get home. we also stopped in the badlands on our way home which wasnt so bad. didnt take real long. we got home at about 730 and i got the internet on my computer working at about 1030 so i worked on it for about 3 hours b4 it finally started to work. i was getting pissed.

grr...vacation

so i gotta leave my house and friends which i love deeply. i have to go to yellowstone for a whole fuckin week!!! grr..i dont wanna go cuz i dont like being with my family for more than a day at a time. i better fuckin get to bring my computer or im gunna die. or kill someone. im gunna miss a few ppl...lots of ppl.

today i woke up at 1130 which was great, haha. i went to bed at 2 last night, i was waiting for a person to talk to but she didnt show up and i was tired. i hung out with amy for a while. we played soccer, it was pretty great. kinda weird tho, haha. shes an odd kinda person. after that i came home and waited for ppl 2 talk to again. sabrina got on and i talked 2 her for a while, until i had 2 go eat. shes pretty and sweet. i had a hot dog and a samich 2 eat. it was alright, it woulda been better if i knew it wasnt gunna be my last meal b4 i have to leave. i hate my family, at least my parents. but yeah...damn. i wish i could have someone else go 4 me.

this whole week has been shitty, starting on friday morning. the news of the accident and all that. tuesday was sad, the wake. i was happy that their were tons of people there tho, made me feel go to know that they were loved. wednesday was the funeral and that was really sad too. i was disappointed that i didnt get to go to the burial, but my ride couldnt go so there was nothing i could really do. sabrina looked great both days even tho she was sad and i felt real bad for her. there were a lot of people at the funeral too even tho it was in the middle of the day, that made me feel good too. and tomorrow i have to leave for WY. its a 13-15 hour ride and the only thing i will have to do is sleep (we r leaving at 3 a.m.) and be on the comp if i can even bring it. i better be able to or ill be pissed. i might also finish up my book that ive been working on for a few months, haha. the hobbit, i have about 25 pgs left in it.

love yall

=[ damn

shitty mornings turning into shitty days turning into shitty nights...as im sure most of you know, Stephanie and her momma died last night in a car crash. thats the news i woke up to this morning, shitty wake up call. im real worried about sabrina and everyone else associated with their family. its scary ya know, cuz u never think it can happen to u. if i could do anything to bring them two back, including dying myself, i would do it in a heartbeat. i know theres nothing that will bring them back or make the tragedy any less real for their family but all of us can help them in some way. just being their for them and trying to help will help them greatly. i know Steph and her momma are in a better place but its a real shame that they left so soon.

all of you, plz promise me that u wont drive drunk and that ull wear ur seat belts every time u are in a car. they might still be here with us if they had their buckles fastened.

single

im single again...not like its gunna change anything, just thought id let yall know

true story... 4 me anyway

things that seem too good to be real usually arent

only 4 Nicole...no one else read plz

umm....i love you more than ive ever loved anyone or anything else in my life and i dont want to lose you over one big mistake i made. u mean everything to me and without you, i have nothing meaningful in my life and i have nothing to live for. if i could go back in time and decide not to ask her out, i would. i hate myself for it and just cant stop thinking about how i hurt you. ur still as much a part of me as u were the day u said goodbye. im sorry, i love you.

Sorry everyone

im bored. plain and simple, so ima write a blog. yeah...im wasting my time here on earth and screwing so many ppl over while doing it.

firstly...Nicole, im sorry. ive never meant to hurt you EVER, but i still manage to at times. i know im not easy 2 deal with all the time but i try not to be difficult. u mean everything to me and i screwed up ur whole plan for your life. im sorry. i still love you and idc who knows. ima miss u more than anybody this summer.

secondly...Coryn, im with u but i love Nicole. it tears my heart out to know that this relationship probably wont last very long, especially if i keep acting and thinking the way i have been lately. ur a great girl and im happy 2 have met you tho.

thirdly....my entire family. ive caused all of you so much pain and hardship that i dont know y im even still part of this family. as far as im concerned u should have thrown me out on the streets years ago and let me fend for myself, thats how much ive done for all of you.

i screw up everything i do and mess up everyone elses plans, but i want to change. to everyone i know, im sorry. sorry for all that ive done.

i love you all tho, i hope u know that.

"Faithful" Readers...I give you a preview of what im hoping will be my first novel

Chapter 1
Blondy123 has signed into the chat-room.
Blondy123 says: Hey.
Billythekid says: Hi, who are you?
Blondy123 says: Oh, that’s not important. How are you?
Billythekid says: I’m good, you?
Blondy123 says: I’m not have bad myself.
Billythekid says: Why are you talking to me?
Blondy123 says: I was just looking through chat-rooms and I thought u were cute.
Billythekid says: Well I’m not, so you better stop talking to me!
Billythekid has signed out of the chat-room.

“Damn,” Cathy said to herself as she got off of the computer. “That’s the third one I’ve scared off this week. What the hell is wrong with me?”
“You are being too aggressive with them,” said Joe, her partner in crime.
“Well, why don’t you show me how it’s done Captain?”
“Fine”, he said, “I will, let me onto your AIM account.”
“Okay, lets see how you fair, these kids are a lot smarter than you think.”

Blondy123 has signed into the chat-room.
Blondy123 says: Hi, how are you?
Lionspikes says: Not bad, how about you?
Blondy123 says: Pretty good. What did u do all weekend?
Lionspikes says: Not much, pretty much just stayed around my place, what did you do?
Blondy123 says: The same, do you play a lot of sports?
Lionspikes says: Yeah, do you?
Blondy123 says: I love them. My favorite sport is basketball.
Lionspikes says: Really? So is mine.
Blondy123 says: Oh, that’s cool. What’s your favorite team?
Lionspikes says: Well, I really like the Sonics and Cavaliers.
Blondy123 says: Wow, what a coincidence. I live in Cleveland. LeBron James is my favorite player.
Lionspikes says: Sweet, he’s mine too.
Blondy123 says: He’s so amazing. I love how he dunks.
Lionspikes says: Yeah, that is amazing.
Lionspikes says: I wish I could do that.
Blondy123 says: I’m going to a basketball professional and he’s teaching me how to get more air to do those kinds of aerial tricks.
Lionspikes says: Sweet, do you know if he would be willing to teach me too?
Blondy123 says: Yeah, of course he would. Do you live in the area?
Lionspikes says: Yes, I live on Walton Lane, do you know where that is?
Blondy123 says: Yeah, I live about three blocks from there on Baltic Avenue.
Lionspikes says: Would you be willing to meet me at Lollipop Park around ten on Saturday morning?
Blondy123 says: I’ll be there. My name is Cathy by the way; I’ll be wearing a white sweatshirt and black pants. I won’t be hard to recognize.
Lionspikes says: Okay, my name is Leo.
Blondy123 says: Okay, I have to go, but I will see you on Saturday okay?
Lionspikes says: Sounds like a plan.
Blondy123 has signed out of the chat-room.

“You see how easy that was,” said Joe, “Like taking candy from a baby.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, nice work. I have to admit, you are smarter than you look,” said Cathy.“Thanks, you aren’t dumb either,” he said with a grin on his face.

yay... ;(

well as all ppl from DE already know, tomorrow is the last day of school. most ppl are happy about that, not me. summer is a great time of year and all, its just that it gets old after about a week and flys by every year. i want it to stay put for a lil while so i have some time to enjoy myself. i also dont want to be cooped up in the school for 3 hours a day for 2 weeks in july wasting my time at drivers ed. hopefully ill get to hang out quite a bit and wont have 2 do shit all the time but who knows. thank God i dont have to watch my brother over the summer anymore, that was gay.

im done bitchin, its still my favorite time of the year

oh...fuck

im the biggest asshole ever, be free to tell me i am. please do actually.

im just so sick of making mistakes and getting screwed over every time i think im doing something to help myself. i try to make as few mistakes in my life as i possibly can, but i think i just made the biggest mistake in my life. life was good, then i had to go and find some shit out and not even think about how nicole felt about the whole thing. and if she reads this, which would be a miracle in and of itself, i wanna let her know that im sorry from the bottom of my heart how this whole thing turned out.

i hope everyone has a good summer and checks up on me often as i will prolly be very bored and typing alot of these blogs.

its getting better

i think my luck is changing again, this time for the better tho. hopefully i dont screw it up, screwing stuff up blows big time. its like golf. its great when its goin good, but when its bad, its BAD. i golfed like 63 holes this weekend, i think. my hands are a little sore, but w/e i had fun. some famliy came over on sunday and that was pretty kool. went golfing, lol. shot like shit, but had some good food. today i went golfing too, shot a 90 on 18 holes. for those of you that cant do math at all, thats averaging 45 per 9, lol.

on a not so happy note, there was a drug deal at school and some of my friends were involved in that. i wont be talking to either of them much from now on. im gunna stay out of that shit tho, i expect everyone reading this to do the same!

F.U.C.K.

presently im failing at life. im pretty damn sure that nicole is gone for good now that i know what actually happened saturday between her and someone else. so this is all fucking up my life. especially my golf game, if i golfed 9 holes tomorrow i could probably shoot in the 30's somewhere, i golf better when life isnt going well but idk why. shot a 43 today if that says anything about how shitty life is for me right now. i dont want her to be gone, ever. but it feels like every day i find out something bad that i didnt know about before and its not fun. every day is a new day and ima keep trudgin thru this mud that seems to be bogging my life down suddenly. for three months i was just living for tomorrow and now im just waiting for the moment she comes back. if that never happens then ill be waiting forever with arms outstreched and my chin held high. im not gunna give up on us. we had our share of tough times and weve had our share of fun...i just wish it didnt end.

yay for golf, everything else blows right now

shot a 45 today and tied for 8th place out of 42 people at the meet. its about time i shot a decent round in a meet. the last 2 have both been 52 and not good enough to stay on varsity for long, but i managed to shoot well today so i might be on for the rest of the season if all goes well.

on the flip side, i would gladly have taken another score of 52 if i still had her. she gave back my ring today which stopped me in my tracks and it finally sunk in that shes actually gone. damn. im not glad shes gone, may never be. thats what can happen when a guy screws up. the worst part of this whole thing is that i dont even know what i did.

my grades aint that good either, a C, an A, and a couple B's isnt very good, even for me. i should just stop bitchin cuz bitchin aint gunna change a goddamn thing except for how many posts i have on this goddamn blog.

i got littles book yesterday but havent had time to start it yet, i was busy tonight and ill be busy until saturday afternoon after i get home from golf. i finished my spanish project that i needed to get done for tomorrow and got that son of a bitch out of the way thank the lord.

back to the whole *she* thing... shes pissed at me too, which doesnt help my case. i didnt mean to make her mad and im sorry i did. i was kinda out of it last night and now i realize that i acted like an ass. theres not much i can do about it now except apologize right to her face. i dont want to do that tho cuz i dont know how shes gunna react to having me talk to her again. i saw her once today and all i could do was try to crack a smile when she saw me lookin her way. "you never know what u got till its gone" and with that quote ill end this post.

well...c'est la vie, i guess

so the last 3 months, to the day, have been great. thats over now. and it really blows so far, just like every breakup. but ill get over it, ill live. at least i think i will. i still love her, i told her that. it dont even matter to me if she cares cuz i was just speaking what i felt when i said it. and i still feel it. and i dont care what the rest of the world thinks. i didnt figure it would happen today and she caught me off guard.

hopefully now ill just be able to concentrate on golf and school for the most part of the next 4 months...either that or she comes back to me *highly unlikely* cuz im an asshole or at least a shitty boyfriend. thursday, friday, and saturday are all meet days for golf and 18 holes on saturday. 36 holes in 3 days is better for my hands than the 54 i played in 4 days but its still not good for them considering my hands are already sore from golfing too much.

my life blows, someone write a happy blog to cheer my ass up plz and thank you =]
luv yall, especially nicole

life is good...for the most part

ok, well i havent posted anything new in about 2 weeks so i figure its about time i get to it. ive been somewhat busy, which is really busy compared to usual. ive been golfing alot the last few weeks, some good scores...some not so good. today i shot a 46, my best of the season and ive been pretty consistent in about the 47-50 range most of the year after a 55 in the first meet. NICOLE and i are getting along pretty well but i wont be able to see her tomorrow much at all =[ i had a soccer game on saturday which we won and then i went golfing which was fun until we had to stop early which pissed me off. im saying which alot today if anyone hasnt noticed, idk y i just am. dont bug me about it or ill slit ur throat! not really, but just dont bug me about it. i golfed on sunday too and shot a 49 at piper hills in plainview. im happy with how ive been golfing recently, but not with how i did on my geometry test. i got a whopping 60%. horrible, i know. but other than that, i really cant complain. i have over 100% in spanish and prolly 100% in phy ed. but im done typing for now, another update soon probably.

caring

im depressed and i dunno why. it could be about not doing well at golf on monday and missing a meeting for it yesterday, but i really dont know. golf used to be a big part of my life but now its like i dont even care about it anymore. i only have so much that i can care and i care about Nicole more than i have ever cared about anything in my life. its kinda freaking me out cuz i dont have any caring left in me, if that makes any sense to you. i have always had room in myself to care more about things, but i dont have that extra supply anymore. i need to get it back, but i cant just stop caring about something. i dont want to stop caring. i cant stop caring. my life revolves around three things; Nicole, school, and golf. and i care about Nicole more than anything else. i somehow need to balance those three things out and somehow keep my relationship afloat at the same time. i dont know how to do that. i guess ive just been really frustrated with myself recently and i think it showed on the golf course monday night. plain and simple i need to start caring about golf more, then ill be happier.

time for an update i guess

ive been pretty good lately, got my B+ in computer app back up to an A- because i fixed one assignment so yay for that. been reading and writing quite a bit too which actually is pretty enjoyable. Happy April to all, and Happy Anniversary to NICOLE-April 2 was our 2 month. and i actually didnt forget it, lol. i got 11 hours of sleep out of the last 72 and im kinda pissed about that but w/e its my own fault partly. im 3rd on varsity for the golf meet on monday which hopefully will be warm. IT WAS FUCKING COLD TODAY!!! damn, i hate this kind of weather it just sets me up for a bad day. but today actually was pretty good after cussing all morning, lol. i was cold when i got to school even tho i got a ride 1/2 a block, thx tyler pagel. he saved me from freezing my ass literally. im on pg 30 of my book and im kinda getting sick of typing, lol. but ill keep with it till im done just cuz i need to get some kind of work ethic going. i have none whatsoever right now. and i know my last couple entries on there have been kinda/very long so ima keep this one shorter. I love you all, especially NICOLE =]

update...me writing a book? naw, but wait...

hey yall! my life is going great, i stayed after school for about 2 hours today to hang out with NICOLE =] it was a blast, i love her. im writing a book too, im done with 16 pgs and its starting to get kinda interesting. it will prolly suck when im done with it, but maybe little will help me get more detailed and teach me how to seriously write. it would surprise the hell outta me if i tried to publish it and actually got it done. im not that big into reading as you all prolly know. i do like to write tho, even tho im not good at it. when i was trying 2 decide what to write about and i started with a sentence that i showed little, he liked it. he said today that it was prolly better than any sentence he ever wrote in one of the books he wrote in high school and that made me feel great. maybe i can make a living out of this, who knows? i would really like to, but i dont. its going slow, it takes a lot of words to make a page. ive got over 3000 words on the 16 pgs im done with and mr little said i need around about 40000-80000 so i still have a long ways to go which is good. i need something to do besides this and myspace. the book is about a guy who is great at golfing and goes to the state tournament as a junior after getting hurt really badly as a sophomore. i need to somehow incorporate the injury into what happens in the state tournament or else the start of the book really wont have a point to it. it would also add to the drama in the storyline if i could incorporate it in later in the book, like after he goes pro...if i decide to make him go pro. other than the book, my life is pre great. NICOLE and i are good and our 2 month anni is on monday so yay for that, shes been asking me if i remember it for like a week already and YES I REMEMBER IT. if i forget on monday im a dumbass, dont be afraid to call me one. i dont get to go golfing tomorrow with tommy if he goes, but w/e. i dont have my clubs and i have to go to roch to get cleats and shin guards for soccer. i also want a flash drive so i can show my book to mr little when i get a little farther into it. i dont want to make him edit it all at once cuz i dont think hes gunna appreciate having to read something boring and that he prolly doesnt know much about. i really hope he enjoys it if he agrees to edit it for me. if he doesnt like it i think its a waste of time to even try to publish it. he knows good literature when he sees it. and although i dont think hes gunna particularly care for it, i hope he can help me make it better by making it more detailed and also better written. if i do publish it, it will definately be with his help. and since hes a teacher and hes helping me with it he will recieve at least part of the profits if we make any. prolly over half of them , he needs the money more than i do especially considering he doesnt know if hes even going to have a job next fall. anyway, this is a long ass blog considering i just posted one yesterday or the day before or summin like that.

luv yall
specially NICOLE
josh

mmk then...i guess i need an update, NICOLE and i are doing pre well even tho the end of last week blew chunks....i sucked at golf practice on tuesday, but w/e idrc it doesnt matter. so yupp, im actually all caught up on hw for once =] its pre sweet, feels good...im watching carlos mencia right now and its pre funny, lol...umm...NICOLE is friggen the best...i went to the golf dome to volunteer there tonight and mrs mike will prolly dock me pts for not doing something more for the community but idc. i had a good time and thought it was pretty fun. i got to strip some grips and that was pre fun. i got to carry a bunch of cardboard boxes to a dumpster too which wasnt too bad, i also helped another guy price clubs. using the pricing gun is pretty fun. i like the golf dome and if i can get a job their sometime, i definately will. its not hard but carrying cardboard gets kinda boring and repetitive. i love NICOLE and i havent really talked about her much yet which pisses me off! shes pre much totally perfect. i think i need to go golfing with her this summer. that would be fun. i gotta leave this place for awhile so im done with this for now.

yay!

finally a good week =] me and NICOLE are doing great, i think. i dont think ive screwed anything up for awhile which suprises me, lol. tori gave me a ride home today which was real nice of her and im thankful for it. shes giving me a ride tomorrow and i get to try some vault, hehe. i hear its good so we r gunna head up to KT for a pit stop before we go to school. shes addicted to the stuff, lol. she says its like cocaine(not that she'd know) haha. so yeah, i hope tomorrow stays good and it prolly will. so yay for that. tommy needs to get to buying a car cuz the snow is melting in a hurry and if he doesnt get a car i need a ride to golf practice. i dont think tori will give me a ride to st charles and back every night i have practice so tommy needs to spend some $$$. im not too worried about it tho cuz the courses arent gunna open for prolly another month which isnt great but w/e its better than never. once the courses open im gunna get a membership to plainview and maybe get out there 5 or 6 times before the season is over. maybe i can go with NICOLE a few times, that would be a blast. NICOLE is the greatest, most perfect person in the world and dont anybody say shes not! hopefully her parents will trust me enough to let her go but i guess ill understand if they dont althoughi wont be happy with them. anyway this week has been good so far and i hope it keeps up. maybe the snow will all be gone by next week, who knows? im sure hoping so cuz then i get to go golfing =] yesterday was pre great too, i got to stay 1/2 an hour after school with NICOLE. she was staying after for her mom to pick her up and i was there cuz i didnt wanna go home before a haircut. so i hung out with her for an extra 1/2 hour and that was a blast even tho we were at school. thanx to you 3 that actually read my boring ass blogs, i would have absolutely 0 comments if you guys didnt read so thank you, luv ya, love one of ya =] i want yall to know that im here for ya if ya need me, and this is a long blog entry and its late so i need some ZZZZZZ's talk 2 yall later =] love you NICOLE

Ugh...

ugh...shitty week. but yeah, at least NICOLE and i arent having problems. i love her and she was gone the last 2 days of the week =[ so that blew, but shes gunna be back on monday so yay for that. the only thing we arent agreeing on is that shes beautiful and perfect, which she is. but this weekend sounds pre gay so far, i have no idea what im doing which blows. but i need something to do for the next few days so if yall have any ideas for me id be glad 2 hear em...thx

bad day...bad week

so pre much im sad...im not allowed to tell why cuz its not about me...i feel real bad about it tho...in other news, if yall read nicoles new blog none of the stuff about me is true...shes too good for me and i was never mad at her, i couldnt be mad at her if i tried. i love her and today was our one month =] its too bad we didnt have school. today sucked...it meant a 4 day weekend which totally blows...and i got bad news, but i cant tell anyone anything about that...i played in the snow for about 30 mins today and that was pre kool...and i talked 2 nicole for a few hours last nite which was kickin...except i accidentally called her a cow and i didnt mean to, sorry bout that babe...it was a miscommunication...shes not a cow. i love her i love her i love her. so only 2 days of school this week pre much blows, i love school...its the only place i get to see NICOLE and all my other buds.

yeah...

just another little update. i hated this weekend, monday wasnt too bad since half the day i was talkin to NICOLE on the telly, but then i got in trouble for that a little bit, o well. i love her so its ok. today was good except that mr jobe is gunna have to write me and NICOLE up if he catches us doin anything again, so that sux. it was a really boring day after school cuz its not nice out anymore and the only thing i feel like doing when the weather is bad is eat. i think i could slap on another 20 lbs by the end of the week, i hope i dont tho. that would suck, i would feel overweight for the first time in my life =[ tommy and me are going to nat'ls for golf, even tho the season hasnt started yet, i just know it. nat'ls are sometime in june, i think. so me and tommy will be in like hawaii or summin when summer starts and itll be great. and we will have so much fun golfing and making new friends...o and theres always winning which is always good =] im tired, its like 1130 even tho i think it says 930 on this so yeah, but its really 2 hours after whatever it says. so yeah, thats pre much my dreams and if they ever come true, w/ or w/o tommy it would be a miracle, i need lots of practice...its a joke between NICOLE and me so none of yall need to worry about it, hehe.

hey the whole 3 of you that look at my site besides me, i love yall...yes even the dipshit tommy, but just not like that...im not gay so dont worry, just a lil update on my weekend. ITS GAY!!! i have nothing to do and NICOLE is at her dad's so i cant even call her up 2 talk and the fucking snow will keep us out of school on monday more than likely so thats gay too...i hate this weekend, it blows and i wish it would end right now!! im even starting to miss tommy, and its only saturday nite! ugh...ima get off my soapbox now tho cuz no one else cares. today is NICOLE'S b-day so yay for that =] happy b-day 2 her, i hope she had a great day w/o me.

i really wanna write right now, like a story...but i dont have any ideas on what to write about so if anybody could give me any kind of hint that would be greatly appreciated =] over all im in a shitty mood and if theres no school on monday it will be all better on tuesday if we have school then =] cuz then i get to see my dream girl again...now im slipping off to the land of dreams. whisked away by the thought of seeing NICOLE in my dreams...im still madly in love with her and i dont see any reason for that to change anytime soon

My 2 Favorite Things...

Firstly, NICOLE, i love her. shes perfect; shes so beautiful and smart. shes called Jack and Colie, haha. her fav food is some weird ass thing from applebees, i think. she loves horses, especially hers which is named catalyst. she says shes gorgeous, but i havent seen a pic. yet, im sure she is. i love her and she is my everything, and my favorite thing. shes so easy to be around and she tries to make me feel good about myself, i try to make her feel good too =] i love you babe.

golf is my fav hobby. its awesome to be outside on crisp spring or fall days. even summertime is nice for golfing. i like how you dont have to really think about it at all and you can just kick it, do what you want even if its not really nice out that day, you can still have fun.

Finally

i finally skated alright today, i fell only twice in 1 hour and 45 mins =] i did real good, so yay for me. and my day was pretty gay besides that cuz i didnt get to see NICOLE =[ and that makes me sad. and we dont even have school tomorrow =[ i love school, its the only time i get to see NICOLE...shes the greatest. i get to see her on tuesday tho so ill be happy again then...i meant to call her tonite, but i forgot....sorry babe.

Again...

i still suck at skating and the ice kicked my ass again. o well, ill get better eventually, i was playing hockey for 3 hours today tho so i got a lil better. but i think i killed my elbow, think i broke my arm =] so i had funn...i went to the food court at Apache for supper too, yummay. i got tacos from the bell....pretty kick. and ive been tired all day even tho i got 10 hours of sleep yesterday. so yeah, my day was pre good =] but my cuz's are over so i might not wake up tomorrow or ever again, they r both crazy...im scared, NICOLE plz come hold me, i would like that very much...sorry i didnt call babe, i was gone most of the day after i awoke. i love you, i love her...so yeah thats pre kool, and about all i did all day =] im happy enough, i miss NICOLE tho =[ and cant see her till tuesday =[ 3 day weekends suck. if mr little reads this hes gunna call me a pansy but idrc cuz hes a dick even tho hes like my 2nd bestest pal behind nicole (#1) and lish (#2) i love em both...mr little would be #3 i guess since lish took his spot behind nicole, lish is kooler tho so hmm....and shes not so mean to me, doesnt call me a pansy every time i tell her something, and i thought teachers were supposed 2 be sensitive...but w/e its kool....mr littles just odd i guess...k, well then, way too long...luv yall, yes even tommy haha, but not like that...i only love nicole like that

Kick Ass...

So...today i went skating, and i kicked ass cuz im me. well...to be serious, the ice kicked my ass. but its all good since its my second day ever on skates and i only fell like 10 times in 2 hours so i did ok.

but what this is really about is the new links that i put at the bottom of my page...i got the drama page, alishas's page, and gimps page...they r kooler than everybody else but i forgot to add tommy so ima do that when i get done typing this up =] but they rnt where i want them, goddamn i need help, lol...cuz i cant figure it out. HELP ME!!! i'll love ya forever if ya do. And of course NICOLE is still perfect, ima miss her over the long weekend tho =[ hopefully we can do summin but who knows. thank yall for checkin up on me, im doin fine but i gotta have heart surgery in a couple months....jk, im good =] hope yall r doin good and have a great long weekend

Tommy....

Tommy called me gay cuz of my kick ass background...white power, lol...jk...i love all ppls. but yeah, tommy that wasnt nice...anybody who agrees throw amen in a comment and ur good to go. anybody that wants to add me to AIM, plz do...my s/n is joshtheg123 and dont forget it.
HAPPY V-DAY EVERYONE, HOPE IT WAS GREAT FOR ALL OF YOU...TOMMY CALLED ME GAY AND IF YOU AGREE WITH HIM SAY YAY, IF YOU DONT (MOST EVERYONE) SAY NAY.

I WANNA GIVE A SPECIAL V-DAY SHOUTOUT TO THE WOMAN I LOVE, NICOLE (NO LAST NAME GIVEN FOR SECURITY REASONS) I LOVE YOU BABE. AND YOU ARE PERFECT, EVERYONE PLZ AGREE WIT ME SO SHE STOPS BEING SO MODEST ALL THE TIME.

ALISHA!!! MAKE SURE NICOLE SEES ALL THE WONDERFUL COMMENTS ABOUT HER =] CUZ EVERYBODY LOVES HER, JUST NOT AS MUCH AS ME. K, THANX

Me-In a Nutshell

Hi everybody, I'm Josh and if you don't know me you probably don't want to. I like to golf and absolutely love Nicole, only because she's perfect. If you know her just don't hurt her and me and you won't have any problems. If I didn't make myself clear then I guess you might have to learn the hard way but I thought I was clear enough. Thats pretty much me in too many words, I'm not worth your thought so I'll be done with this blog now.